idea Delusion Angel - David Jewell

Daydream delusion,
limousine eyelash,
oh, baby with your pretty face,
drop a tear in my wineglass,
look at those big eyes,
see what you mean to me,
sweet cakes and milkshakes,
I am a delusioned angel,
I am a fantasy parade,
I want you to know what I think,
dont want you to guess anymore,
you have no idea where I came from,
we have no idea where we're going,
launched in life,
like branches in the river,
flowing downstream,
caught in the current,
I'll carry you, you'll carry me,
that's how it could be,
don't you know me?
don't you know me by now?


I'm in love.
In love with an idea.
An idea that one could talk to a complete stranger for hours on end.
And not about stuff like how girls and guys are different.
Intellectually stimulating conversations.
Of love, life and dreams.
Dreams that you've had in your sleep. Not the dreams you aim to achieve.

Falling in love so bad you wake up in a sweat.
Fears that the one person could be gone so suddenly.
The notion of being so near yet so far.
Groundhog day.
Repetition.
Tragic  ¶ 10:14 PM 0 Comments

  hey this is for those who can't read and are just plain stupid. holla!


i would understand if someone texted the wrong person, if someone got the wrong number or if someone mistook me for another person.
mistakes are evidently human.
BUT if for some retarded reason -like say, "i'm an un-evolved ape from billions of years ago" kind of retarded reason- you messaged me wrongly on MSN, i will not forgive you.
i repeat, will NOT.

for one, when you first click on the person whom you want to chat with on MS-fucking-N, it gets highlighted blue. hard to miss even if you are colourblind.
subsequently, you've got to DOUBLE-CLICK on the person's name/nick to get a little screen to pop up as if magically (ooh! shocking!) to talk to him/her.
now if that's not mistakable enough, don't you have to READ and CHOOSE the person you want to talk to?
i for one don't talk to 97% of the people in my MSN "contacts". so suddenly asking "how the bleeping hell are ya beyatch?" to some dude scratching his balls is not really a situation i wanna get stuck in.

now for mobile phones, the mistake could be unintentional, like typing 'Q' or 'S' instead of 'R'. you've seen those people who look at people or clothes or whatever while they type away on their mobiles. i'm one of them admittedly. and mistakes in these situations are higly probable. pressing numbers on mobile phones for those who sadly posses huge fingers could also pose as a problem and would result in them getting a hostile "wrong number" from the person on the other end followed by a slamming of the phone (hard to do on a mobile though).
FORGIVABLE.

but MSN? bullshit. if reasons listed above are not convincing enough, the person's face will suddenly appear to replace the 'lil blue man on the chat screen. magic, like, again!

how incredibly stupid and incapable of maneuvering a mouse can someone possibly be?
heck, even drunkards get the right person they want to talk to on the phone (yes! the phone! where you have to press an average of EIGHT numbers) and that's saying a lot.

and even if you have happened to overlook the several FOOLPROOF actions to talk to the right person on MSN, the least you could do is clear up the confusion you've made to the other party and reply when the person voices his/her confusion. and then you apologise because hey, the screen's already there for you to type the 5 letters in (that's 'SORRY' to you crack whores).


there you go.
ode to stupid incompetent fools.
GOODBYE.  ¶ 11:45 PM 0 Comments

  time i think i need time away from you.
i'm starting to resent you.
i've no idea why
but i just am.


i want starbucks  ¶ 6:44 PM 0 Comments

  sad i think the saddest thing is knowing that your friend doesn't know you all that well even after all these years.
and the saddest thing is that she might come ask.


but i love my school. HAH.  ¶ 9:08 PM 0 Comments

  thinking now here's something to think about.


if you've not been contacted by a particular friend, say -for the sake of the argument- an ex-girlfriend, for a long time, few months, say, and you know the whole "let's be friends thing is never gonna work", would you message her on friendster asking how she is and how her A-Level results were and if she got into university and whatever?

i don't give a fuck if it was out of sheer drunkedness, the answer is a very resounding MOTHERFUCKING NO!
wouldn't it make sense that she has not contacted you in any sort of way? oh sure, you're the kinda person who thinks well a few months is not THAT long and we can pick up where we left off lalala. utter bull-fucking-shite mister.
and didn't the ex-girlfriend tell you that she wants your other leg broken, your guts pulled out, your brains fried and that she would hate your every being after the wounds have healed?


now that that's out of the way, would you, when on a highway, swerve to avoid hitting a lone person and risk putting the danger the lives of your family (cause there'd be a lot of cars on either side of the road) or would you hit him? or would you try to stop the car? which could be impossible cause you were travelling at high speeds and you'd kill him anyways.


and i'm a simple girl. what i get is more than enough to cover basic expenses. unlike some people who just want everything, bills piling and not thinking of their course of action. i mean if you were sponsored, then why not? but they're not paying for you, you want this and that, so to you that is a measely amount. fuck you ok? i really don't care. i've really had enough of your high and mighty-ness. you should be knocked down.

and seriously, you TOOK IT UPON YOURSELF to be that person. you WANTED to be it. so what? so people can praise you? i'm not gonna do that. you stand in mud, you get your shoes dirty, don't motherfucking complain. no one pushed you in there. and you're just complaining just so people would tell you that "you can do it". you yourself know you can, so stop fishing for compliments. i'm not that person who will give that just because. and you can always say NO. but it's either you don't want to, you can't or you actually really want it cause you're just desperate to be that one people want to depend on. and you want to be dependent on. just so you can feel independent. fuck, you've got a serious problem going on.


HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY
to all mums and mums-to-be.

yeah i'm angry. kaypo heads.  ¶ 9:38 PM 0 Comments