thinking now here's something to think about.


if you've not been contacted by a particular friend, say -for the sake of the argument- an ex-girlfriend, for a long time, few months, say, and you know the whole "let's be friends thing is never gonna work", would you message her on friendster asking how she is and how her A-Level results were and if she got into university and whatever?

i don't give a fuck if it was out of sheer drunkedness, the answer is a very resounding MOTHERFUCKING NO!
wouldn't it make sense that she has not contacted you in any sort of way? oh sure, you're the kinda person who thinks well a few months is not THAT long and we can pick up where we left off lalala. utter bull-fucking-shite mister.
and didn't the ex-girlfriend tell you that she wants your other leg broken, your guts pulled out, your brains fried and that she would hate your every being after the wounds have healed?


now that that's out of the way, would you, when on a highway, swerve to avoid hitting a lone person and risk putting the danger the lives of your family (cause there'd be a lot of cars on either side of the road) or would you hit him? or would you try to stop the car? which could be impossible cause you were travelling at high speeds and you'd kill him anyways.


and i'm a simple girl. what i get is more than enough to cover basic expenses. unlike some people who just want everything, bills piling and not thinking of their course of action. i mean if you were sponsored, then why not? but they're not paying for you, you want this and that, so to you that is a measely amount. fuck you ok? i really don't care. i've really had enough of your high and mighty-ness. you should be knocked down.

and seriously, you TOOK IT UPON YOURSELF to be that person. you WANTED to be it. so what? so people can praise you? i'm not gonna do that. you stand in mud, you get your shoes dirty, don't motherfucking complain. no one pushed you in there. and you're just complaining just so people would tell you that "you can do it". you yourself know you can, so stop fishing for compliments. i'm not that person who will give that just because. and you can always say NO. but it's either you don't want to, you can't or you actually really want it cause you're just desperate to be that one people want to depend on. and you want to be dependent on. just so you can feel independent. fuck, you've got a serious problem going on.


HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY
to all mums and mums-to-be.

yeah i'm angry. kaypo heads.  ¶ 9:38 PM