ARGGH this STUPID feeling.
nerves nerves nerves nerves NERVES!
they're HAYWIRE!

I LOATHE IT!


it was really fun the past few days but my heart has been beating really fast suddenly at random times
and i HATE IT!!
how can you have fun when your heart is racing?
you feel as if you're gonna go on a rollercoaster
or as if you're gonna meet a really cute guy but you don't know when and where
or as if something bad has happened
or WHATEVERRRRR!

i just feel like dying!
not in a morbid i-hate-life kinda way
but in a STOP-THIS! kinda way
i just wanted to land in a heap on the floor when it comes
or cry or something.
i could only cover my face and breathe deeply to try and calm myself
it's so so so so bad.
it's so sick.

but maybe that thing has happened already?
i don't know!
it is still happening but not as intense.
thank god.


but thank you to all the lovely people who've made it awesome for me the past few days.
aisyah, fazlinda, nadhirah and gunan.
you guys should have your own bunch of groupies.
and also get a million buckaroos for tolerating me
ROFLOLNKOTBSB!  ¶ 10:36 PM