stop! i can't take another minute of looking at your faces
i can't take another minute of slacking
i can't take another minute of acting calm


i want more
i'm sorry i'm greedy
i just can't stand this


yes, i'm the lazy one.
yes, i didn't put in effort.
yes, i'll take the rap for you.


i can't take another minute of work being shoved in my face and me being half enthusiastic
wanting to do a good job
when others are content with lame ass results?


i can't take another waking hour of faking a smile, telling you it's ok, it's alright, yeah i'm cool.
enduring the last minute shit
having everything blow up in my face with your ya-ya papaya-ness
i'm sick of it


and i don't even have an open space to scream out to
i'm at a loss of words
i can't describe this
what i'm going through
i stare into space wishing it'd all go away
and even crying doesn't even do justice
i can't start to cry
i've lost so much


i've failed
i'm sorry
this is so undignified  ¶ 10:25 PM